yesterday, 15/1/09, Arrived at school at 9.00 for a ICP paper. Considered continueously doing PED for more than 13 hrs, all the way till next day morning 1plus am. Changing from outside LSCT lvl 4 stuff room to ourspace then to atrium then to KAP then to LSCT outside emart. Finally there we were screamed to get out of the school by a angry security guard. Fortunately Isaac managed to drive his father car which help us save alot of time going from places to places. And because of him, we saved on cab fare. His father's car is super big and comfy. So tired after working for the 13hrs that i knocked out when he drove us home.

Today, i woke up at 10.30am and i read my hp msg: 'Hey ppl, can we meet 9.30 sharp at lsct. Compilation got problem. Bring along ur laptops also..Urgent! Thanks...'. message sent time: 4.30am. Wonder if these ppl are vampires!! Because of this msg, i got to rush myself to school again. Actually the problem isn't too big. Just that some values are not filled in only. Did some reference and zoomed home to drive out the car. Lucky for my group, we managed to submit out report before time to OBC. Took my NAPFA in the evening. Was suppose to report at 4.30pm but because of the submittion, we were late. The XL in-charge is so XL and impatient.. well better not talk about him. In conclusion, raf and darrel were late so they didnt managed to register. Supposingly she went back to do some ammendment to the report and wanted to submit at 5.45pm to OBC but he already went home. Raf must be really disappointed, can see that she put in quite much effort.. well more than me i suppose. Scored gold and silver for the 4 stations but failed my standing broad jump so decided to give 2.4km a miss. After napfa isaac, honghao, jian ming and me went to alameen to eat our dinner.

On the way sending jianming home, i have to turn into dairy farm road. i signalled right and started to move in the empty space. This XXXX car behind, I dun noe what is he doing, did not accelerate or decelerate to show that he wants to give way or not. Just normal speed, so i assumed that he wants to give way and i shift my car into the lane. XXXX him, horned me and moved to the left lane, wind down his window and give angry hand signals and shouted at me, 'ooi!' . XXXX person. Dun noe how to drive please stay at home. Young boy acting like some big shot.

FYP report has been submitted, hmm think after presentation than the load can really be off my BACK!!! Cant wait for CNY plus go K:)

Hey, thank you for ur encouragements when i am down and tired and irritated. For your cup of milo during my late and cold night in school, honestly i was touched. Didnt really expect that:) Once again i am NOT weak. My friends told me, go ahead. U asked if we are close, u said our closeness is like in a raletionship. Towards friend, i have no say in which ur habits and lifestyles. Into a relationship, I dun like the smell of burning cigerattes. I dun like valgularies output like air breathing frequency. Things i do depends on my mood. I dun like speed and jumps and publicities. Being aquarius, I tends to expects alot at times. Thats about me:)

Pissed la. Calling us to meet for PED and end of the day running away becos wad??!! U jolly well know we are doing ped today, please for God's sake, bring ur laptop. Dont act like a primary school student. From day 1 u keep saying that ur laptop spoil, so WAD HAS UR SPOILED LAPTOP GOT TO DO WITH US???!! No initiative to repair or do anyting. Tell me what have u so far done for ped? We never say anything doesnt mean u can continue to do noothing in the group. U are going to be like augustine soon, i tell u boy. U are tired so am i. Who is e 1 who insisted to do ped today? If u have the face to say that the stuff i do is simple, THEN do it urself, i can confirm that you are nt going to feel that my simple stuff is as simple as you think! Dont act professional when you dont know anything, DONT WASTE my TIME. make urself useful, This is ngee ann polytechic, not home for the handicap, even home for the handicaps ppl are more useful that YOU!!!

Yesterday met at school with my ped grp at 9.30am. only 3 members turned up but all of us was not in the mood. We got side track many times within 2hrs. Getting back to work, the 3 of us stunned at the pump section. Like the norm, our grp will always seek help from our class genius:) Before meeting the savior, we went to campus deli at the atrium cos raf wanted to buy sandwich. While waiting i was digging sumthing in my bag when i lose grib on my laptop on one hand. Fell onto the floor and bounched once. The workers in the store shocked-'Oh!'. Me just pick up my laptop then act normal. Mayb it's not the first time i drop my laptop so the level of shockness decrease liao ba. The upper side of laptop crack. Gonna call DELL after PED presentation. Stayed back in the library till the library announcement came and left at 8.30pm. 11hrs in school!! BUT still didnt finish the calculation for 1 pump....sad.. After that, 6 of us went to the malay store near our school to eat our dinner. By then i reached home it's about 10.30pm.

Chinese New Year around the corner, but haven found the free time to shop for clothings, not saying cleaning up my own room. Most likely as e rate things going now, i will have to wear old clothes for the new year :( Going to spend the new year overseas= lesser ang bao.

Quite shocked that my mum actually told me to drive to school myself. 1st time after i passed that she auto gave me green light. Smiling to myself. Because i had PED meeting in the afternoon, got to drive home alone for more than half a journey after droppiing a friend halfway. Nearly got into an accident just now. Was driving on the right lane and come a merging lane, signalled. The car on the left refused to slow down and give way, squeezing my car. I cannot slow down as the car behind that car is following too closely. The distance between both vehicles was super closed. Thought of cutting to the right lane only then that car slow down. SCARRY!!! Also realised that i am quite bad at parking. Well still got alot of good girl session to put up before i can drive to more places:)

Went to holland village to meet up with my friend at 7.30pm on Sunday. Like in seconday school, we'll talk for very long hours. Reminds me of the good old times where a group of us will sit at the canteen and talk for 2-3hrs everyday without feeling bored after school. We talked about all things; hmm private and confidencial..So close and open to the point that where able to feel for each other in situations. We played truant, go k, share homework and handwritting and write complain letter to principal and stand up against teacher when 1 is being wrongly accused Ooppss... We care about each other academic performance... hmmmm sounds better. We were known to be together by lots of teachers. We were told that we should really treasure our relationship because good and close friends is not easily found. I would'nt say that our friendship was flawless, but the quarrels and the 'brotherhood' feeling we have towards each other at difficult times, make us grow together. Thank God, that i still have them to pour my problems and unhappiness. Otherwise i wont have the courage now to try once again:)

4hrs of sleep last night. Waking up in a mood prepared for the firing session. Bus today was speedy and managed to get me to school 5mins before class starts. Thought he will scold my group for our slow progress in our FYP..haha luckily he was in a good mood, no interviews, no questioning and no stern face. Class ended quite early so charles joined us for our br-unch at canteen 1. We were quite 'not used to it' when he sat down with us, moment of awkwardness.. PCON lecture in a no reception, distracting, spoiled air-con lecture room. CONFINE SPACE!!! couldn't really pay attention. Next ped, think i lost track of my group liao. dont noe what has been done and what has not. Well...as time goes by...Now i only hope to finish my part:
CONDENSER why u change flowrate and temperature!!!!

Church service was at singapore expo today. i hate travelling and and was thinking of taking MC (bad girl). Who would have guessed that yesterday night i had nose block and was sneezing so much that i couldn't slp. Miss church as a result...

hey, dun so sad la.. you are not superman. U dont have to be the best at all times. Neither do you have to be the best friend in all people. Who will be happy to be forced by circumstances to do things which u had been doing for the past few years. Mayb there is still other things which had been bothering you, well like wad i was told, the best way to stop ur misery is to know the root of ur problem then solve from there. Otherwise taking a rest is form the norm lifestyle is ok de. Don't worry too much okie? anything call me can:)

Dug out the diary written when i was in secondary school, recalled alot of stuffs. Jumped onto my bed and buried my face into the pillow after reading a post in my diary. Realised that my secondary school life is quite interesting actually. Sometimes feel like killing myself, How stupid was i at that point of time. Taking secret peep at him at the parade square, waiting for him to end his CCA then follow behind to the bus stop, asking classmates about his personality, getting his no. then msging him doing stupid things and getting excited over it.. Well that all past.. Now that i am able to see things from the outside, i found out actually there is someting wrong with the way i bring myself to like him. I am the one who has been avoiding him treating him like nobody yet i still rate him as 'sian shi'. Forgetting again and again that people do get bored and tired.Although all these past, but i think i really mature alot after this whole thing. May had hurt and loss much but I really made clear what i really want. Did alot of thinking and concluded. Dont get blinded by love. Able to understanding another party and whether to accept each other thinking before commiting into a relationship. Letting the other person know ur limit and feelings and view on a certain thing. Respect, communication and boundaries... for the future is unknown:) haha sounded like some preacher