Dug out the diary written when i was in secondary school, recalled alot of stuffs. Jumped onto my bed and buried my face into the pillow after reading a post in my diary. Realised that my secondary school life is quite interesting actually. Sometimes feel like killing myself, How stupid was i at that point of time. Taking secret peep at him at the parade square, waiting for him to end his CCA then follow behind to the bus stop, asking classmates about his personality, getting his no. then msging him doing stupid things and getting excited over it.. Well that all past.. Now that i am able to see things from the outside, i found out actually there is someting wrong with the way i bring myself to like him. I am the one who has been avoiding him treating him like nobody yet i still rate him as 'sian shi'. Forgetting again and again that people do get bored and tired.Although all these past, but i think i really mature alot after this whole thing. May had hurt and loss much but I really made clear what i really want. Did alot of thinking and concluded. Dont get blinded by love. Able to understanding another party and whether to accept each other thinking before commiting into a relationship. Letting the other person know ur limit and feelings and view on a certain thing. Respect, communication and boundaries... for the future is unknown:) haha sounded like some preacher